Kiss Me Then I'll Wake Up

Fairy Tales Make Up

.:The List o' Slash!:.
FF7 - Touched
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Teh list o'Slash!!
Pairing total: 116
Current obsession: Dean/Cas
generally not seme/uke
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Let me know if I've missed any or if you've got recommendations ^-^
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Misc- Coconuts
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I'm still alive! If anyone was curious...

I have a Tumblr now. Tumblrs are cool. Come hang out with me! Or just say hi. Or whatever.

Ah, back to the good old rambling entry
Tangled - Need One
arora_kayd
I should update my user info as it's six years old now. It's one of many things on my list of things I should(/want) do, a number of which being sleep, but all I can get myself to do is read Dean/Cas fic. Which isn't a bad thing per se, it's just been my m.o. for a while and I don't want to burn out on it.

Watched some more of season 1 of SPN tonight and man Kripke (and whomever he worked with) had these characters set from day one. IT's true that my love of the show and the characters is clouding my judgement but Dean is so damn consistent. Props have to go to the cast as well. They fit and play their characters perfectly.

I'm kind of itching to write a sort of character analysis of Dean (yes, I'm a "Dean girl") but I doubt I could get my thoughts out, never mind making it thoughtful or very intelligent. I can't write essays anymore.

Should see if they have a Destiel entry over on ship_manifesto because it's not like I already have a million and a half fics bookmarked to read later.

Omg 26 in three days. I am so unaccomplished XD

Why is there still no Basch/Balthier manifesto? FFXII gets no love. It's a little bit my fault. I did claim the pairing, but was never even able to start the thing. Writing ability, why have you left me?! I would be tempted to give up the zoloft if that's what offended you, but then my sleep schedule would be all kinds of f'd-up and my ability to function around people would be severely hampered. (There was a Destiel one. Written only 5 months in to Cas being introduced. Would be nice to see an updated version since their love, it is so complicated [and, seriously, 99.5% canon])

Show. Wut r u doing? Show. Don't stahp!
Adventure Time - Jake
arora_kayd
LUREA:
At the meet n greet, after the Carver comment that Misha made, we all must’ve made astonished faces because Misha impatiently said, I think the love there is made pretty clear.
And I said, Sure, on Cas’s part, its well established that he loves Dean, but i don’t think it is on Dean’s side. (yes, arguing just to get him to elaborate, I’m bad)
And he sorta rolled his eyes and said, C’mon, in the first few episodes, Dean’s running around Purgatory, chopping off heads, Where’s the angel, where’s the angel, you know, the guy I’m in love with?
Us: I DON’T REMEMBER DEAN SAYING THAT!!
Misha: He might as well have. You know, we know what it is, what’s going on. We don’t talk about it. The actors don’t, Jensen and I don’t. But we’re all perfectly aware of how the relationship is, the writers are completely aware of how it’s being written. It may be unspoken but that doesn’t mean it’s not there or not true.
Yes, at the Meet n Greet, Misha completely confirmed that Dean and Cas are in a love relationship. He did not specify romantic or sexual, but then again… At that point, he didn’t need to.


ILU MISHA COLLINS. I don't even care if nothing actually happens on the show. This is like Michael Shanks and the whole Jack/Daniel thing again.

My fangirl heart. It might explode.

Stolen from Tumblr
Trigun - Holy Crap!
arora_kayd
#OKAY WHILE THIS LINE IS HILARIOUS AND WHATNOT #I ACTUALLY READ IT AS SOMETHING A LITTLE BIT SADDER #BECAUSE IN THIS EPISODE DEAN IS PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY #TRYING TO MAKE THEM WANT HIM TO SAY YES SO HE’LL BE GONE #HE TELLS BOBBY ‘YOU’RE NOT MY FATHER’ #KNOWING THAT’S WHERE IT’LL HURT HIM THE MOST #HE TELLS SAM ‘I DON’T BELIEVE IN YOU’ #KNOWING THAT WILL CUT THE DEEPEST #BUT WHAT DOES HE SAY TO CAS? HE MAKES A BUNCH OF MOCKING SEXUAL REFERENCES #I THINK HE KNOWS THAT CAS IS ATTRACTED TO HIM #AND THIS IS HIM CALLING HIM OUT ON IT #TO TRY AND MAKE CAS ANGRY AND HURT #THIS EPISODE IS DEAN TRYING TO CONVINCE HIS FAMILY THAT THEY DON’T WANT HIM #SO HE GOES FOR THEIR WEAK SPOTS #AND CAS’S WEAK SPOT IS THE FACT THAT HE’S IN LOVE WITH DEAN

YES! YEEEES!

*gross sobbing*

I’ve been noodling over this post for the past few days, and I think it’s almost right, in that Dean throws out the sexual barb because he almost certainly knows that he’s Cas’s weak spot.
And yet… I think the person Dean’s really digging at here isn’t Cas, but himself. He’s the one sexually attracted to Cas: he’s the one who can’t stop looking at Cas’s lips, who always looks so uncomfortable when Cas crowds his personal space. And Dean hates himself for it, because he knows that this is an angel of the Lord, the holiest of the holy, and he—well, what is he? He’s the blood-stained fuck-up, the man-sized hole of Daddy issues and neediness, the demon who never deserved to be saved from the Pit. What business does he have feeling something so dark and needy and human about an entity as good and heavenly as Cas, someone who so profoundly believes in Dean’s non-existent righteousness, who talks about him in terms of “special” and “saved” and “profound bond”, who rebelled against the divine plan and the entire Host of Heaven, and sacrificed everything, just for him, all for him? Dean knows it’s disrespectful, this dark and small and petty human sexual attraction, he knows it’s wrong and unreciprocated and he wishes he could make himself stop but he can’t, he just can’t.
Remember what the Dean!Leviathan says about Dean? “He doesn’t have relationships; he has applications for sainthood”. For nobody is that more applicable than Cas (which is why Cas’s eventual betrayal hurts Dean so much). To S5!Dean, Cas is a concept, a creature so innocent and pure Dean didn’t even think it existed until it saved him from eternal damnation.
So when Cas revokes his faith in him in that second GIF; when Cas says, essentially, “you are no longer worth my faith in you”, that’s when Dean snaps, because that hurts so much, too much, and all he can think to do is lash out with the one thing he thinks will hurt the most — except he doesn’t stop to wonder who he’s really trying to hurt here.
That’s why, when Dean says “Blow me”, Cas seems more confused than anything else — he can tell that Dean is angry, and he’s angry too, but more than that, Cas doesn’t understand why Dean chose to express himself with those specific words.
But to Dean, the innuendo makes perfect sense; it’s a form of self-harm, of self-torture. In the same way he bitterly tells Kevin (twice) that angels are “junkless”, it reminds him of what he wants but can never, ever have.
Because Dean trained under Alistair, he knows all the best ways to torture a man, to make him break, and deep down he knows that what he feels for Cas is what will break him; or, more specifically, what will break him is that Cas can never feel what he feels, that angels just don’t have the equipment to feel that way, that whenever they try, it just breaks them apart.
And I eagerly await the day Dean realizes he was wrong.


Holy crap. Holy crap. This.

Also, I can never get a Tumblr of my own because ALL my time would be spent reposting gif and genius things like above and contributing nothing myself.

"Growing Up Cullen" deserves so much more love than the books...
Misc - Shuuuuuun
arora_kayd
welurklate: SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH
welurklate: ESME, I KNOW THIS WILL BE HARD FOR YOU...
welurklate: BUT COULD YOU BARE TO PART WITH ONE OF THE SWEATERS I KNITTED YOU?
balcarin: THIS POOR, FALLEN WOMAN IS IN NEED OF OUR ASSISTANCE.
welurklate: LEND THEM TO HER?
welurklate: AS FOR THE HORSE, I DO NOT EVEN WANT TO EAT IT
balcarin: PLEASE EVERYONE MAKE HER FEEL WELCOME. EMBRACE HER INTO THE FAMILY.
welurklate: I FEAR WHAT SORT OF DISEASE IT WILL CARRY
balcarin: JASPER, YOU KNOW ABOUT HORSES. PLEASE...SEE TO IT. I LEFT IT IN THE GARDEN.

How the line in "Reading is Fundamental" actually ends.
SPN - Since when?
arora_kayd
"Cause the Angels–they don't care. I think maybe they just don't have the equipment to care. Seems like when they try, it breaks them apart" ...and that's why Cas and I aren't together anymore.

I'm alive? Wut?
SPN - Bored
arora_kayd
So, I did end up moving to Idaho. It's not so bad. No major meltdowns yet. On my part, at least. My sister hates it here >.<

I'm all caught up on KH games and really really want KHIII now.

Also, re-watching Supernatural from the beginning, even though I should finish watching season 7 (I had it recorded in California but when I moved the DVR it was on did no come with us ;.;). They're so tiny and adorable!

Also have been staying up too late reading spn_redemption because it's pretty and Dean/Cas. On that note: I wish they would have waited to do (or done another) convention episode so that they could have had Destiel shippers there (since the books to that point in the series had ended at Dean going to Hell) because Dean and Cas' faces would have been priceless. Cas would be so confused by fangirls. The things they would do to him!

And Chuck is not God. Because no.

Deadpool cosplayers make me happy.

Also, I'm now a Brony/Pegasister. Rarity is my favorite with Pinky being a close second (though I love all of the mane six).

Mmm. Yes. That's all. Paid for a LJ account even though I'm not here often because I needs my icons.

Just a quick lol
FFXII - WTF?
arora_kayd
Saturday night I found out (via actually paying attention to the credits) that Cee-Lo Green is in Mystery Men as a member of the Not So Goody Mob

Finished Birth by Sleep
KHII - Xigbar
arora_kayd
Why are you doing this to me Squeenix? You better have KHIII out soon. My head is going to explode from questions.

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